motivation

two "forces":
inertia and momentum
one keeps things going
and the other keeps things stopping

and me is in between
pushing the gas
and pushing the brakes
stop-go-stop
go-stop-go
stealing from one to pay the other
just to test seat belts
and whiplash soda

when can i stop driving
what's my destination
what's my motivation

tell me.

i've forgotten what it means
to arrive.

i want to run empty one day
i've paid my carbon quota ten times over
so can i give it a rest?

on the side of some nameless road
let me pretend
i'm a solar panel
or a windmill
i'd like to soak in some rays and breathe
just for a minute
and pretend that it matters

that it is productive

that it helps the world go round.

i want to be
effortless again.

nothing

forced.