blog-addict: disclosure

yes, i am becoming a blog addict.

first thing i do is check my blog, see how it looks. yes, it looks like the same piece of crap it was when i last checked a few hours ago.

then, i check my profile. it counts up no matter what bozo (me, for example) looks at it, so because of my frenzied narcissistic acceleration, it could go up 10 every day. whoohoo, someone is checking me out (i'm really like a dog excitedly chasing his own tail).

then, i click on to see other bloggers in hawaii. on occasion, i'll check out someone else's blog, if it happens to look interesting... and some of the time, it is. TOO INTERESTING. which makes me somewhat paranoiac regarding my OWN content (which is pretty hit or miss, usually miss). and that leads me back to checking out my blog again. writing SOMETHING interesting in my not-so-interesting life.

this, i realize, is the danger of blogging. instead of actually experiencing life, i try to reproduce it, in such a way that it is "presentable," "storied," etc. when actually it's not. it's just random and boring nine tenths of the time. and that's the nine tenths that i actually pay attention to.

this is my disclosure, my disclaimer. really, believe it or not, my life is EVEN MORE BORING AND POINTLESS than this blog pretends it isn't!!!

READ NO FURTHER!!!