today is 6/11. it's a day after my sister's birthday. yesterday, my son and i attended an online virtual meeting about agcurious. it's an "interest" session for gofarm hawaii's agricultural program. i must say, i am definitely interested, although it will be a commitment if i happen to be accepted. i think my son is much more half-hearted about it. but as i explained, you can't say you don't really want to try something if you don't know what you're missing. and at this point, my son is pretty much reluctant to try anything.
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i think today, i've been feeling kind of blah. the weather has been gray and windy, but still, at times, ridiculously humid.
i've kind of matched the weather, i suppose: meandering, and inconclusive.
maybe there's a point where the routines that you push on yourself don't really have much of a point.
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i guess i've been feeling pretty drowsy. i close my eyes, and all of these images and thoughts float up to the surface, swimming on the underside of my eyelids... i wish that i made more sense. that whatever's in me could be directed to some purpose... that i could essentially flow. but i am a random assemblage of spare parts, that don't really add up to anything.
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i don't know if i'm really designed for prose, or poetry. i like to think of bassho, wandering the countryside, and, at moments, composing haiku. could i ever be like that, to feel so free and liberated, and trust in the art within me? i wish.
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sorry, i really don't have much to contribute today. i already gave at the office.
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