4/3/2021

i am getting more and more frustrated with my writing, to the point where i don't really want to work on it any more. i got lost in the plot of the previous project. i think i need to work on characterization more. however, the more i "think" about it, the more i feel like the narrative is falling apart... i wish i could make it a simpler, shorter story. something that allows me to just accurately depict a feeling, without all the complexities of a plot.

i wish writing were something where you could just allow something natural to flow out of you. well, i think there's an element of that, but actually most of what comes out initially isn't suitable, isn't polished, doesn't make sense, and it takes a lot of work to get it into something remotely palatable to audiences...

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i listened to salman rushdie, and every time i listen to him, i feel a small renewal of hope. he goes over a variety of strategies, possibilities, for how to write the narrative to best effect. for him, writing truly is a craft. so i'm going to weigh my options, and try to write detailed character biographies to make my characters more real... and we'll see what happens then.

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part of the problem is i'm not really sure what i want to say. and then, i'm still not sure how to say it. what is my point?