tonight, lynn and i dropped the kids off at ko'olina to stay with aunty joan and uncle ferman. afterwards, we swam in the nighttime pool together, drifting under the manmade waterfalls, and soaking for a time in the high-chlorinated jacuzzi. the coolest thing was swimming underwater with the strange glow of the pool lights illuminating our skin. oh yeah, that and repeatedly practicing handstands underwater (to the chagrin of lynn... as usual, i'm such a goofball).

in the quiet drive back, the city lights looked different. the windows of houses that we passed looked inviting, like a thousand versions of "welcome home." i liked this feeling, as though the world were settling into its own skin, warm in its shell...

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i have been trying to transfer old video recorded minitapes into dvd format, so i can give my friend min our old videorecorder. it is strange to see videos from only two or three years ago, to see our children from not so long ago. it makes me realize how quickly time passes. how quickly children change and become, well, themselves (as if they weren't always that)... what a strange thing videotape is... what a strange game it plays with time. it engenders an illusion that we could somehow hold onto moments, to people, to places...

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