resolutions

this year, i resolve to:

1) get organized. this is something i resolve to do every year, but somehow never get around to really doing. i suppose i am by nature a person who likes his freedom, and likes to "play things by ear," but i really need to get my s**t together, especially since i have so much of it, and so many different kinds of it, lying around.

2) really spend time with my kids. i suppose i am decent, in that i try to keep my kids relatively in line, and doing what they're supposed to. but i guess there still needs to be more work in this department, partly because of resolution #1, me being not organized enough to address the needs of my children in a balanced and effective way, and partly because i don't REALLY spend time and appreciate them (as opposed to "telling them what to do"). my children are the center of my life, and i should act like it.

3) appreciate my wife. similar to #2, but far more pronounced, is the lack of quality time i spend with my wife. again, i use #1 as an excuse, but it is far more than that. i really need to actively think and plan of ways to show my wife how much she means to me...

4) get in shape. i think i've fallen off the fitness wagon this year, what with the stress of another job, etc. i have to devote a little time each day to keeping fit.

5) meditate and pray. i understand that there is a lot of hatred both without and within, and i need to devote myself to coming to the realization of the state of "thusness" outlined in the heart sutra: "there is no suffering, and there is no escape from suffering." this, i feel i can only develop through daily meditation...

6) assorted sundry goals: like, writing the other 3 books of marsilani, one story at a time, and actively promoting it so that it can get exposure (like the bare ass of a monkey!) if not actually developing as a revenue stream (HA!); practice drawing every day; playing the guitar; getting good at taiko; developing my taijiquan practice of fajing and other qualities; writing a style manual of acupuncture and bodywork to define how i do things (so i can do things in a far more systematic way); being the very best teacher i can be (in particular, learning how to teach reading comprehension and basic math literacy); creating a flow chart to detail all the tasks necessary for the whole iep process; etcetera.

well, i wish you all good luck with your resolutions! work a little bit each day towards your goals, and hopefully, you'll make some headway! i'm trying, in my own meager way, to swim "against the current" of my own inertia...